Friends to Lovers to Friends (Omnibus)

Friends to Lovers to Friends

The children of the sand struggle against the swirling wind.  I watch with shuttered eyes and labored breath, the dust and chilled morning shadows thickening around my scarred ankles.  Incense, memories of incense in a distant basmalesque boudoir.  The children pull shawls closer to their hunger-ravaged shoulders and stumble on towards the dim Saharan sunrise.  Sahara gold against a pink wall in stifling afternoon heat, tangled pale limbs at midday.  The truck driver leans over and mumbles something into my ear, his thick Bambaara accent making it near impossible to understand.  I nod my head and scratch at the bandage behind my ear.  The children of the sand lift their eyes to the lines of the horizon, where the road disappears under centuries of sediment.  I take comfort in finding my final resting place in this remote edge of the world, heading deeper into the desert.  My fingers scratch against the truck bed, trying instinctively to make some last mark before I expire.  The children of the sand look past my death throes, they laugh as the shawls and burlap fall from their shoulders as they run laughing into the crystal silence of the dunes.  Nothing hurts more than watching this vision dim, believing it to be true, believing in anything at all.  I nod to the truck driver for one last stale Gauloise.  He flashes a milky-white grin and passes the rest of the crinkled pack.  Hands are raised in farewells, including mine.  The diesel engine snorts, the truck bed rattles, and once again we are underway.

Bujumbura 0200

The breeze feels excellent against my bare torso, and for a moment I forget the fevered, throbbing pain in my left arm.  The night air is hazy and sluggish at 2am, and the lights on the hills appear as mere suggestions through the murk.  The most noise comes from a bar I can barely see, maybe a 10 minute journey on foot from the hotel.  Laughter, frantic bass beats, amenamena hey hey, this time for Africa.  A dog trots down the street like a shadow, his pawpads making a percussive click on the asphalt.  Nothing else is moving besides the dog and the wind.  The wind gathers me, blankets me, covers me.  It whispers in my ear, speaking a continuous stream of language that has no spaces, no silence, no pause.  The wind cradles me; it reaches under my ribcage and brushes against my heart.

The time when the sun made our faces golden

Bring me a string of oranges, he says with a wrinkle of his brow, a hairy arm hanging out of the window of the truck.  Domingo skips over a pile of rocks at the side of the road and pulls a string of mandarins out from under a dirty straw mat.  He hands the string up to the man in the truck, and flashes his jagged teeth.  The man in the truck grunts and hands down a crumpled note.  Domingo takes the money, stuffs it in his pocket, and taps the hollow metal of the truck as it rumbles away.

Greece (Zoe)

Agamemnon and Parnassus, these rocks and weeds where deities lie. Caught like a drop of sweat from Hera’s brow, female vengeance and masculine sloth showing no tarnish with age. Driven to madness like Medea, slipping like the tunic from Poppaea’s golden shoulder, dreams of sable and crimson.  Life itself escapes my lips, and I forever haunt those worn goat paths of Santorini, fallen from the rage of my previous epoch. The olive tumbles from my lips, and I awake from sleep.

Robert Dole eats mashed potatoes and gravy

Robert Dole sat next to his wife in a diner in Ohio. A plate of mashed potatoes and gravy was on a table before him. As he reached for a spoon and looked into all the news cameras pointed at him, his mind was suddenly taken to another plane of consciousness. He heard the voices of all other beings that had come before him; he saw visions of every moment that ever existed. He could feel a multitude of colorful universes sliding and twisting in an infinite number of realities. Robert Dole lifted his hands and touched the shimmering fabric of space, spanned his arms from one end of the scarlet cosmos to the other. He shrunk his view to the dim ghosts and subatomic particle-shadows mutely ticking and flashing from one dimension to the next. Time had stopped; his mind beheld shamans and prophets, crystals and aeries, all those who had bridged the metaphysical chasms between time and space. Robert Dole spoke in tongues ancient and unknown, let symbols and script flow from his fingers as he joined those who had dared looked inside their spirits and into the alien universe within. The next instant, when Robert Dole put his spoon into the plate of mashed potatoes and gravy, his consciousness snapped back into the present. The news cameras continued to record. His wife held her face in a frozen smile. He lifted the spoon to his lips.

In the cloudy days that followed the blizzard

In the cloudy days that followed the blizzard, the inhabitants of the tiny town of Albertshire began to see strange apparitions in the forest that banked the western part of town. In between the trees, rendered black and thin by the weeks of snow, there would appear shadows of fearsome shapes and proportions. Blood-chilling cries would pierce the gloom of the late afternoon, and at night there would be a moaning emanating from the heart of the forest that shivered the soul. At first, the reticent citizens of Albertshire let these events hang silently in their atmosphere, barring their mention from all but the most secret conversations. However, this all changed the foggy morning of February 4th, when the town awoke to find…


Late in the night, a strange bird flew onto our roof and started sobbing. At the bird’s eerie call, I could hear Isidord in the next room getting up to fetch the machete, bringing it next to his bed. At that moment a woman appeared in my room, towering over me in terrifying silence. She was dressed in black, with black wings. Her face, however, was completely white, like that of a frozen corpse.

When it’s gone, it’s gone

I kept reaching out at the sky, trying to grab the rose pink curtain falling upon the spears of the twilight-blackened pines. Something told me to take out my camera; I had to capture this image, preserve it and revisit it forever. Unfortunately, my camera had not drunk a bottle of cold wine in the last hour, so it could not capture the dizzying beauty I saw before me. It was moving, it was alive, it was crashing into the silvery waters and dying. It was something that has been repeated on every sunset since creation, yet I found this particular evening to be the one that inspired the ecstasy and melancholy that shall last me until my final breath. The photo I took sits in my collection, a dark and blurred suggestion of a dream.

The Pet Shibboleths of the Opponents of Reform

The last time I talked with Emily was the summer she spent at a farm up north.  It was late in the afternoon, and I was outside a video store in Bloomington when she called me.

These Ojibway women have asked me to go into their sweat hut with them, she said, and I’m not really sure what to tell them.

You should do it, I said, this is a unique opportunity to experience their culture, even if it is in the nude.

Ok, she said.

That was the last time I ever talked with Emily.

Thy Blood Becomes Poison

It was incredibly cold when I awoke.  The splinters of weak light around the door told me it was probably somewhere around 4 in the morning, and all the demons of the night were gone.  Another night of survival, another day of frantically trying to work my way out of this mess.  The subtle demons were becoming less subtle with every passing night, and there were more them; their confidence and audacity were growing along with their numbers.  It used to be only about 3 or 4 in a night, but now there would be as many as 16, creeping in behind the dead trees, hiding in impenetrable shadows, screaming in unison.  Last week an incredibly large loup-garou tried to take down the door; from the scratches it left, its claws must had been 3 inches long and its height well above 6 feet.  Only good sorcery and a sharp machete are keeping them away now, and those are defenses that can be easily breached, if they are given enough time.  Remember, it is also good sorcery that is keeping me in, keeping me from escaping, keeping me from seeing the paths and trails that would lead me to freedom.  There is a weakness in my knees whenever I try to take the path to the main road.  There is a panic, a gripping paranoia whenever I try to scale the steep hill that leads to the coast.  Sometimes I wonder if I really am still in this world, or maybe I’m trapped in some sort of outside of reality.  This would explain the presence of these fantastical demons, although I was already familiar with them before I was trapped here; they are indigenous to the landscape, known by native and émigré alike.  The liquor only makes it worse, it only invites them into your mind.  Oh, but it is so cold this morning, I need it, and besides the sun is almost up…

Distance, Cuisine

Halfway back from Hinche, I found myself in a grass fire consuming the hillsides around the road.  A pastor passed in his pickup, stopped a few yards in front of me, and asked if I needed a ride to Pignon.  His tone suggested that I looked very lost, but I waved him on.  My left wrist was still throbbing from the fall I had taken earlier that morning, but it was beneath my dignity to accept a ride.  The demonfire kept licking up and down the hills, emitting steady puffs of dirty smoke.  At least it wasn’t burning tires and angry faces.  I bowed my head, gingerly mounted my bicycle, and pushed ahead.  Ahead, clean air.  Ahead, twilight and peace.  It is still much too far away.  Zazi wo, zazi kay mwen.  M’ap rele lwa yo.

We were standing in about waist-deep water, among the nets and mud.  Lamine reached down and pulled a fish out of the net, and it was as if he drew a lightning bolt from the deep.  The fish was long, thin, and had smooth scales that flashed in diamond brilliance.  Camus never had to catch a fish, I thought to myself as I tried to catch my breath.

Stranger in Strange Lands

When I visited Paris, I was a sallow teenager with little common sense.  It was gray, crooked, and overwhelming, but I was still too sheltered and naive to understand what I was experiencing.

I hailed a taxi back to HLM4; I was tired and Alan was drunk.  As we skirted the dark, silent stalls of the market, the driver popped in a cassette tape and suddenly “Changes” by Tupac Shakur was rattling through the speakers.  Here was a language everyone in the taxi understood, and we all sang along until Alan and I were dropped off.  Late nights in Dakar could always shake off the bitter complications of our diurnal lives.
I remember numbing all sense of emotion with a good amount of gin, then casting myself on the bed with the TV on.  What did I see?  I’m not sure what I saw, but I remember distinctly what I heard, her voice echoing crystal-clear in my memory:
Être aimé
Nous avons tous besoin de l’amour
T’es loin de chez toi, chèrie, I said to her.

Loa and Lightning

The tattered old farmer walked by the front step where we were sitting.  He was clutching a full bottle of clairin in his hands.

Tonton, where is your conch shell?  I inquired.

He stopped and squatted next to us and we began an aimless chat.

Tonton, I said, pointing to the bottle he carried, if you drink all that clairin you’ll go blind.

No, he said, I have a very powerful loa that permits me to drink copious amounts of alcohol and suffer no ill effects.

He continued to tell me of other powers his loa granted him, and as he spoke he flipped off his dirty baseball cap to reveal a crumpled sheet of notebook paper and some dry, yellowed tobacco leaves stowed within.  He quickly tore off a shred of paper and rolled a morsel of tobacco inside.  I proffered my lighter so he could ignite his patchwork cigarette.

Mesi, he said, thank you.

After a couple of tokes, he gave the tiny cigarette to me, and I took several puffs.

Cryptic Journeys

Once in Dakar, locate a sept-place or a Ndegan-Ndiaye going to Kaolack.  Set out early in the morning, as it is a 5 hour journey.

You will get off at the depot just outside of the Grand Mosque in Kaolack, buzzing with activity.  Try to get to the depot to the south, closer to the river.  Locate a Ndegan Ndiaye going to the Gambia via Karang and climb on.  This will be a very sweaty 2-3 hour ride.
Pass through the towns of Passi and Sokone.  After Sokone, you will go through approximately 4 villages before arriving at Toubacouta.  Rap very hard on the frame of the bus so the driver and apprenti know that you want to get off at this town.
Walk down the main street in Toubacouta, past the mosque, until you reach the tailor shop.  Take a right at the tailor’s and continue.  Eventually you will pass some burned-out buildings, a kindergarten, a dispensaire, and a prenatal clinic.  There is a lady selling baignets outside of the prenatal clinic; buy some baignets from her.

The road will turn a rust-red color, and then you will find yourself out of Toubacouta.  There is a post office to the left, and next to it an Alize mobile phone tower.  Keep going, past the half-completed villas, past the grazing cows, past the shoddy military base.
After about 500m under the baking sun you will arrive in Soucouta, the last village on the road.  Take a left just past the telecentre, walk past the foosball table crowded with adolescents, walk until you come to a grand tree with a bench under it.  Ask anyone there for the house of Yande Ndaw.  Yande might be there, or else her daughter Gnima might receive you.  Whoever it is, give them the baignets you bought and ask them to show you the place where Mamadou Sarr stayed.  They will lead you past the stacks of drying fish to a derelict campement looking out over the mangroves.  Take a look around, write a note, reflect for a moment.  I can’t tell you right now what you will find, but you will know what it is once you stand there.

Kayor 1979

Sometime late that afternoon I heard Ibou’s moped buzzing down the dusty road. Sure enough, there she was, sitting on the back of the moped. She appeared like an angel in the savage jungle sun. They stopped in front of me, and Ibou flashed me a mischevious grin. She hopped off and took a look around. Ibou, still grinning, took off in a cloud of dust.

-Hello, she said, her expression bemused.

I mumbled a reply and stared at the ground. If I had known she was coming I would at least have found the time to take a shower.

-Surprised to see me? Her face broke out in a wide smile.
-Well, yes, I said, the project won’t be done for another month or so. I can’t imagine why you would want to come here so soon.

I couldn’t stop staring at her hair. Sure, it had been there all along, but here in the brutal reaches of the bush it seemed transfigured. Her hair was dark like October rain, thick and black and taunting. I wanted to dive into it…

-What are you staring at? she asked.
-Nothing, it’s just your hair, I stammered.

She laughed and put a hand on my shoulder. I wanted to kick myself.
-Come on, she said, you’ve got to show me around this place.

I turned around and we started walking down the trail to my compound. Had it really been 10 months since I last saw her? It would be like starting all over again, here in the bush. I took a deep breath.

-How long were you planning on staying?

St. Tropez (Alisa)

“Behind every disaster and tragedy in history there is a long-lashed, dark-haired woman,” he said, and then he poured himself another glass of anisette.

She rolled her eyes, thinking their situation was far from a disaster. It was just like him to exaggerate. As she sucked on the rim of her own glass, she hoped that this helping (his sixth) would finally calm him down. Perhaps he’d even take a nap. Oh, to be so lucky. She needed her hands free to clean up the place and make a few phone calls, the most important being to Papa Paulo who was a magician at erasing the past. It just so happened he owed her one.

She glanced over her shoulder and saw him flop down on the wicker loveseat, his eyes closed, smiling. The smoky liquid in the drink he was still holding teetered over the edge and dribbled onto his dusty khaki shirt. She had the urge to run and get a towel but stopped herself. Instead, she bent over and picked up the palm-tree patterned pillow he had thrown at her just 20 minutes earlier and gently placed it under his head. There was a part of her that loved the way he exaggerated, his penchant for the dramatic, the mystery, the wonder in his eyes.


Mid-Century Modern

There was perhaps another time before this, when we both found ourselves stuck in a small town on a lake, the Studebaker overheated and broken down until down.  We were on our way to Carlisle, Pennsylvania, for a wedding, but now found ourselves delayed in a place that barely deserved a name.  The roadside motel we lodged in advertised a television in every room, but the Admiral set in ours remained switched off as we laid out suitcases on one bed and studied the faux wood paneling on the wall.  The room felt too small after long hours driving down the highway, so we head down the street to the 24 hour diner (Plato’s).  It is surprisingly busy at this late hour, the waitress craning her head towards the back to see if a booth is open.  The rotund Greek behind the counter in the paper hat, presumably the owner, resembles Pan a bit, with a little sleepy Hades mixed in for dark effect.  Nonetheless, the black and white tile floor is clean, the seabreeze green Formica table of the booth is sparkling, the tableside jukebox is shiny and polished.

The day was spent driving through cacti-pocked desert that turned into alfalfa fields, so we feel ready for a chocolate shake and a cherry phosphate.  You pick out some Eddie Cochrane on the jukebox, and we hold hands while we debate how to make up the lost time tomorrow.  I look out the window and study the cars in the gravel lot: a few old Ford pickups, a Thunderbird, and a Galaxy.  It is a Ford town, I mumble.  You shake your ponytail to the beat of the song, and it ends right when our refreshing confections arrive.

Hmmm, meatloaf sandwich? I inquire, looking at the menu.

Nope, you respond after a slurp of your chocolate shake.

We linger for a bit, then wander back to the motel to shower and turn out the lights.  Headlights illuminate the drapes throughout the night.

The next morning, I walk to the garage next door and recover the Studebaker.  We load up the suitcases in the trunk, grab a cup of coffee from Plato’s, and drive out of town past the lake.

We get to Carlisle just before the rehearsal dinner, but manage to climb into our semi-formal attire beforehand and arrive with fresh smiles on our faces.  It is good to see old friends, the ballroom where the reception is held is coral pink, the band’s tuxedos are blindingly white.

However, it still feels good when we roll home a few days later, unpack the suitcases, and collapse into bed.  We wake up late the next day.  Fortunately, it is a Saturday, with warm ocean breezes through the open bedroom window.

Tiki bar or bowling alley?  you inquire.

Why not both? I respond, and then roll out of bed for a shower and a shave.

However, before all of that cosmic amusement, we need to climb on the bicycles and ride for the hills. I close the garage door as you fix your sunglasses on your face, and we roll down the asphalt until we get to the Las Cruces Mountain Trail.  The pine wrens fly above our heads as we sweat and pedal our way to the top of the hill, your polka-dot scarf holding up your hair, your thighs in denim shorts glistening with sweat.  At the top of the hill, we behold the Pacific Ocean and the winding ribbon of highway below, a solitary black Lincoln nosing through the curves

Race you to the bottom? I inquire.

Nope, you respond with a shake of your head.

I set out down the hill, working my brakes as I round the corners and brush past the dogwood branches.  Halfway to the bottom, I hear a rushing sound, turn my head, and see a blurred figure in denim shorts rush past me.

WOOOOOO, I WIN! you shout, your fine rear end racing away from me.

Once I get to the bottom, you are inspecting a grease stain on your cheek, just below your eye, using your pocket compact mirror.

I’m better than you, you snicker.

I respond with a rockabilly growl, and we coast back home on the asphalt, laughing.

Once home, we drink iced tea with lemon and read paperbacks on the patio, the sweat drying in the breeze.  Your paperback is called THE BEEKEEPER’S DAUGHTER, mine is titled LAST STAND ON NEPTUNE.  You rest your feet on my legs, and I gently massage your thighs between turning pages.  The pitcher of tea finished, we go inside for a steamy shower.  You get in first, and I decide I don’t feel like waiting.  I open the frosted glass door to behold your figure like a shot of tequila with lime.

May I join you? I inquire.

Yup, you respond.

After the shower, we have to pick out which tiki bar to go to (Tiki Atomic or Natalie Zea’s) and which bowling alley to lace up at (Airport Bowl or Laguna Lanes).  However, for now, we have a moment where we can find each other in this little cabin of steam, speaking in the poetry of touches and kisses, finding the center of the universe in your body and mine.

The Chinatown Speakeasy

Somewhere in Neo Tokyo, there is a Chinatown speakeasy with orange lampshades and pink curtains, bartenders dressed in cheongsams and bobbed hairstyles, in an alternate history where Trans-Pacific travel is done by airship and Polynesia is a world superpower.

Behind the bar of the speakeasy, a girl in a turquoise cheongsam mixes Vilnius gin into a coconut.  The Del-O-Vision above the bar announces that the rain will continue tomorrow in Neo Tokyo, and then plays some Hawaiian steel guitar, the blurry images of distant palm trees and an island sunset like a distant memory in the mist-filled concrete night.

She serves the coconut cocktail to a woman at the end of the bar, a rather disheveled woman wearing a tuxedo.  Her elbows are on the bar, a messy head of flame red hair hanging over her hair.  The door opens, admitting throbbing light from the neon dragon sign across the street.  A woman walks in, a thin face and a tall, thin body wearing a brown leather bomber jacket.  Korean, Taiwanese, and Australian service patches cover the shoulders and back of the jacket.  Her green eyes roam to and fro over the speakeasy.  She strides through the bar in a confident click of flight boots.  She sits next to the redhead in the tuxedo, looking over at her with a half-smile, looking down at the gin tiki cocktail in the coconut sitting untouched on the lacquered bar.

I miss you, the redhead says, stirring her coconut cocktail.

The tall, thin woman in the bomber jacket puts a hand on her shoulder, her half-smile replaced with an expression of chagrin.  The Hawaiian steel guitar music stops, the fighting betta in the aquarium set into the side wall turns in a slow flourish of indigo fins.

The redhead though about the last time they had been together, in the hospital in Manila fifteen months ago.  Her heart had been aching ever since in her absence, and no visit to the pagoda, no meditation before a jade statue could calm the anguish.  She would leave the Del-O-Vision on all night in her small apartment, hoping to hear some news about the battles in Tonga and Kamchatka, the news chatter and music mixing in with the sound of the monsoon rain on the roof.

The feelings of longing hung like an airship over her, distracting her fingers as she picked through rambutan and loquat at the corner market, making her forget her steps as she walked from her skinny tenement building to the Emerald Club every night to work the early shift.

She missed her yesterday.  She would miss her tomorrow.  And she missed her right now, even as she was sitting next to her.


Most of the time you have to sit out all night to see the hyenas.  They come under flickering starlight and waning moon, always under the pretense of illusion.  In the small hours of morning, everything that murmurs on the horizon seems to be illusion.  I always have to rub a few blades of grass between my fingers to make sure I am not dreaming.  Surely this insomnia is unhealthy, and hyenas cannot be good companions when one cannot sleep for nights unending.  In the morning I walk to the heavy paw prints in the salted mud, just to convince myself it was all real.  Here they are now, circling, their burning eyes and charred pelts reeking of hunger and shadows.  One of these mornings…

TC Noir, Part I

It is always at some warehouse, the last building on the left, Gene thought to himself as he slowly turned the steering wheel of the minivan.  The tires crackled and crunched over the asphalt covered in cracks, weeds, and pebbles.  It looked like no one had been here in over a year, the warehouses needing a fresh coat of paint and the large cargo dock doors covered in rust and cobwebs.  What made the scene a bit ominous, Gene thought to himself, was the evidence of removed security equipment.  Brackets that used to hold cameras now hung empty at the corners of the buildings, faint traces of wire still evident.  Card readers and electronic locks on doors were now replaced with sturdier industrial strength locks requiring a thick key.  This place used to be watched, observed Gene, but now someone wants its history unwritten.  The minivan continued rolling past the buildings, alternating between shadow and deep gold afternoon sunshine.

After the 11th scarred warehouse, Gene realized that the building he was seeking was a small garage at the back of the property, almost swallowed by weeds encroaching on the cracked asphalt.  The fence back here was high, and he saw nothing but trees beyond.  Hidden in an extra layer of the obscure, he thought.  Gene chuckled silently as he directed the minivan to the front of the garage.  The garage could have been a miniature copy of the mammoth warehouse buildings that led to it, same scarred cream-painted exterior, same tall white doors with faded marks at the top where there used to be numbered signs.

Gene stopped the van about 20 feet from the building, his foot on the brake.  He scratched his beard absentmindedly and wondered what he was to do next.  Councilman Warrick had not given much instruction other than the address and a warning to be a bit more discreet than usual about the delivery.  Gene had taken his time preparing, getting the anonymous-looking van from Toby at Whittier Pizza, packing the cargo in the usual fish-smelling, dirty coolers that he always used.  He did a brass-check on his pistol before putting it in a zippered clutch in the dash.  Now he was wondering if he should have put it in the waistband of his jeans.  Too late now, he knew that someone was watching him, and he didn’t want to raise any unnecessary alarm from the clients.

Gene slammed the column shifter into park, took his numbed foot off of the brake pedal.  There was little to do but wait.  This was not the first time Gene had to wait, but this time made him feel a bit uneasy.  He rolled down the window a crack to listen to the ambient noise, see if he could pick anything out.  All he heard was the buzzing cicadas and the distant roar of 494.  He was confident something would happen, hopefully business as usual, but in the meanwhile he just needed to wait.

For the next 30 minutes, Gene inspected the sleeve tattoo on his left arm, contemplated planning a happy hour with friends from work, and pondered where to go furniture shopping with Jolene (her tastes ran a bit far into the realm of vintage, which limited choices).  The summer had been rolling along quite rapidly; there was still quite a bit to do before the new house could be considered “settled”.  Gene’s errands for the Councilman and his associates had increased as of late, he was seeing new people around the firm, receiving new instructions sending him farther into the bedroom communities, particularly into the humid basswood congregations of the southeast metro.  This meant more driving time, less time to unpack boxes and go to the farmer’s market.

The sun slid further and further towards the horizon, and the grim exterior of the garage darkened with twilight shadow.  Gene picked at his t-shirt collar, circled his finger around the Chevrolet logo in the center of the steering wheel, when suddenly he heard a mechanical noise that make him jerk his head up.  One of the doors on the garage was opening with a dinosaur hum, slowly ascending.   Two figures became visible as the door rose up and stopped.  When Gene saw who they were, and what they were holding in their gloved hands, he felt profound regret for not coming better prepared.




Antonin Scalia died as he lived: raising a political shitstorm.

But let us imagine for a moment that he is still with us.

When the respected yet controversial jurist had his near-fatal heart attack in Marfa, the one thing that he could think of was Millie, kissing his cheek and telling him “You’ve got dandelion eyes, Nino”.

Millie was a hippie girl that Antonin Scalia courted many years ago in his youth.  He almost found a conscience then, in a tent in the woods where they ensconced themselves night after night.

After the heart attack in Marfa, Antonin Scalia renounced his regressive ways, and disappeared to grow alfalfa and quinoa on a small farm in rural South Carolina.  We are his neighbors and our children love to go to “Uncle Nino’s” for organic fruit roll-ups or fossilized shark’s teeth.

As the children play in the yard, we sit and sip on chicory tea on the porch, Antonin in his serape or in a beat-up Hawaiian shirt.  He talks about the Constitution and how to stake tomato plants.

His property is only about a klick away from the beach, just down a path through the kudzu and bean plants; walking from the farmhouse to the ocean, you can listen as the sound of the cicadas give way to the roar of the waves.

Antonin has a Rhino side-by-side, all splattered and greasy-hot, that he uses to take us down to the seaside bar, where occasionally Bruce Springsteen shows up to sip beer.  The bar has sweet potato fries and cold, cold Fat Tyre. Sometimes a Filipino guy from San Diego, named Raoul, shows up and plays gentle Hawaiian songs on his Fender Telecaster, and we get up to slow-dance at Antonin’s encouragement.  Antonin smiles and gets a far-away look in his eye as I put an arm around your waist, breathe in your seafoam hair.

The high notes of the guitar twang in and out of the sound of the waves, punctuated by the sound of bottles being set down on the bar.  Antonin tells a joke to Maria the bartender, she laughs like an elephant with a head cold.

I kiss your neck a little bit as Raoul croons, “kiss me each morning, for a million years…”

One night, when we come back to our farmhouse from the beach, we hear some strange music coming from next door.  We sneak over to check up on Uncle Nino, and he is in the yard, the porchlight on, dancing a paso doble with a beautiful older woman in a sundress.  It’s Millie, her once-golden hair streaked with gray.  But, she still has those cornflower blue eyes and mischievous smile.

Antonin and Millie dance with their eyes closed; they don’t notice us watching them from underneath the pine tree.

“Nino,” she whispers into his old, withered ear, “You’ve still got dandelion eyes.”

Night of the Gargoyle

Moving through the silent streets of Girona at midnight, Lochlen heard few sounds besides his own footsteps.  We remember, we will never forget, he thought to himself.  He looked up to gaze at the ribbon of stars flowing between the tops of the tall buildings.  The wind creaked against the wooden doors and shuttered windows, and Lochlen drew his cloak closer.  He pulled the black woolen hood tighter over his head, whispering a prayer to ward away the chill.

He knew the inherent danger of bringing the emerald on this road, through this city, but it was the only way he could get to Rome; there was too much threat at sea from the Ancient Ones and the forces they controlled underneath the waves.  He travelled by night, and scuttled through towns watched only by the moon.  At times he worried when clouds passed over the moon.  He knew the forces that sought him hid in shadows, and could approach in silence.  Now he was worried; someone was supposed to meet him at the steps in front of the enormous church.  He had looked up at the church, and silently communed with the gargoyles, high above him.  Minutes passed like hours, the chill and the bats flying overhead reminding him that he was awake and not dreaming.  Then, he had felt something nudge his consciousness, from below, from a deep gutter he spied in the recesses of a stairway he had not noticed before.  The stairway led somewhere dark; he could see etchings in the worn stones at the top.  He needed to find his way towards water, and he knew Girona had bridges over a river.  Thus, he has slipped away, wary as ever of the shadows and tendrils of fear that crystalized in his mind.  The intelligence he had received was that a cabal of nightwalkers dwelled here, but he was not sure that they would be concerned with the emerald he concealed.

Lochlen pushed forward cautiously down the winding staircases and through the streets, focusing his mind on the emerald nestled in his cloak.  He could feel a twinge beginning in his legs, and knew that something was near.  Finally, he came around a corner and could see a bridge ahead of him.  At that moment, a wave of freezing fear washed over him, paralyzing him.

He looked behind him and glimpsed something enormous in the shadows.  Lochlen looked to his belt for his dagger, and then felt inside his cloak for the lump inside the leather bag.  When he looked back up, however, the enormous figure was gone from the shadows.  It was standing over him now, with cobalt eyes and enormous fangs, inside an aura of despair-inducing silence.  Lochlen felt a slight shiver go down his spine before his hand darted to the hilt of his dagger.